CherylAnnHillsArtist

I reset my schedule back to a 5am wake up time so I could have the cats fed, my coffee made, my brain awake by a 6am start in the studio. Of course, you all know, because you read yesterdays post, that my first act of the day is to write. And even though this is day two of a commitment made merely 24hrs ago, there was resistance. But where does the resistance come from? Great question! It’s likely different for each of us and likely stems from something in the past; a parent, an employer, a coach….   Some of us have a stronger need to forge out own path and we also tend to have greater resistance to things that we can perceive as difficult, painful, or not worth doing.   But our judgements are based on past experiences which are likely not true in our present, yet we cling to them anyway because we haven’t been able to replace those ideas and emotions with anything better. Yet.  My own personal resistance most often stems from a false belief “what’s the point” and the a...

It’s a big subject to ponder, expectations. What does it really mean to have expectations? Often it’s a preconceived notion that we imagine may come true. And as we know, when it comes to imagination there are endless possibilities. And too often our default is either to expect the worst or the best (less frequently). Seldom do we consider a neutral outcome, one that neither changes our world nor creates a ripple effect on the world beyond our own. Yet, if you follow a certain doctrine, every action does indeed cause a ripple effect regardless of whether or not we believe it. You only need to look at nature to see how one seemingly insignificant action can cause a ripple effect in an environment. For example, cutting down that old oak tree in the small forest behind the shed will affect the neighbouring trees, the plants that grow below it and the animals that once used the tree for shelter and food. Expectations tend to keep us from moving forward. We place a carrot somewhere in the...

 The early morning sun of a new day lights gently upon the shoulder of the slumbering artist as she awakens from her peaceful sleep with a smile and a heart full of gratitude and joy. Happy birds flutter in through the open door with cheerful chirps and begin to select her wardrobe carrying a gayly patterned dress to her. She smiles warmly and spins around with glee! “Thank you, sweet birds of the forest!”, she exclaims. As she twirls and prances around her room and towards her brightly lit sparkly clean art studio she wonders how she ever could be so lucky…………………. vinyl scratch……………. I don’t know about you, but this artist has not yet had the forest animals smile and dance around the room with her. A typical day for me begins usually at 5am with my alarm sounding and quickly followed by two more alarms with four soft feet and deep purrs nudging me awake so they can enjoy their First breakfast quickly followed by a snack of dental crunchies. This spring, I’ve made the commit...

 The year of 2020 has been one for the books, as they say. No one has gone through this unscathed. Just that simple fact demonstrates the interconnectivity of earth and everything on earth. And right there, I’ve already veered away from my focus for this blog post. Is it just me? Or has the ability to focus become extremely difficult if not impossible as this year progressed?? What did you read or hear that was not disturbing or controversial? The latest news is about steel monoliths being discovered all over the planet. Is it a hoax?? An advertising gimmick? Aliens???? Regardless it IS a distraction. Politics is a distraction. The stories and reports and ongoing discussions about covid, the environmental crisis, personal and business economic troubles, food, and water shortages; the list of distractions is endless. I watch “real” news maybe once a week now. Usually from our nations source. I try to avoid getting drawn into the drama everywhere on social media. In fact, I’...

As an artist I often consider and reflect on my thoughts and feelings towards my environment. This includes everything from my ideas about my art and how I make it, the foods I choose to eat to the types of clothes I wear, my ideas of my neighbours and friends and my choices in plants in my garden.   Sometimes my ideas and opinions of these things come from a lived experience. Sometimes these opinions come from the ideas and opinions of others.   Children often absorb the ideas and opinions of others simply because their own lived experience is brief. When our ideas are from lived experience, often prejudices can arise. Here is one example from my own experience. When I was a grade schooler, I was bullied by a boy who had red hair. Later in my 20’s it happened again, a man with red hair caused problems for me. So, for a long long time my thinking and feelings towards males with red hair were prejudiced based on these two experiences. Not long ago I met and dated a man with...

Love what you do. Sounds contrite, like some bumper sticker on the car in front of you that you stare at mindlessly during 5pm rush hour traffic on the 403 highways system in Ontario. But really, it’s an important 4 words that many of us ignore for most and sometimes all of our lives. are we happy? As we sit in the midst of the Covid pandemic considering our lives, what we’ve done, what we’re doing and what we want to do; perhaps some of our thoughts should consider; For many of us happiness is actually very simple. A few good friends, the basic necessities of life and doing work that we feel is meaningful and that we love to do. After being forced to self-isolate over the past several months these things should be fairly clear to us. Yet many of us will slide back into our previous unsatisfying lives when this is all over because we cannot nor will not see the alternatives we can build for ourselves. It doesn’t have to be that way. Artists can fall into the same tra...

Here’s some stuff I’m working on for this coming season and year. It will blow your mind!!! Look at me!! Its only been a few weeks since my last post!!!! (pats back lightly….) I have made a list! Yes indeed. Lists are good. They make your brain see the thoughts on a paper and then feel guilty if you don’t follow thru later. No but seriously it’s been proven that if you write with pen on paper your thoughts, ideas and plans you are more likely to not only remember them but also commit to doing them. Plus the act of checking off or crossing out the item when it’s completed is really quite satisfying (apparently your brain sends a little endorphin “feel good” packet )   So write stuff down. Or at least try it if you’re not already doing it. Alright so my list includes a whole gamut of art projects I want to start and complete over the next 4 months as well as things I want to learn. First off; my list included updating my website and linking this blog to it. Check mark ...

What I’ve learned over the past 18 months, and a few things I already knew… Hard work, determination and never giving up : Three things I preached to my daughters and had to accept and hold to over the years especially the last decade. 5 years ago I was in the hospital for 16 days because I once again failed to take care of myself, my mind, my soul, my needs, my life’s path. I put myself last, as is my pattern that I learned early in childhood and have carried through. My brain works different than many and I can struggle with situations that are very clear to others. I know how I “need to think and react” yet decades of feeling and reacting the “wrong way” have created a deep groove that is difficult to navigate through and above. Not one to believe in limitations or disabilities I’ve found my own way to manage my feelings and while it may not be the “right way” it works for me if I let it. I have been told many times there are no coincidences . Each experience I’ve had over...